I love to being surrounded by people but after 2 or 3 hours I need my space more than anything. Do you call this independence? Frankly, when I separate myself from those crowd I do feel lonely or regret I did so but I usually choose to be alone even though.

Yes many times i act like i need nobody and most of times i mean it. But my independence cannot be interrupted. This is more important than not being lonely.
I feel trapped with people if I’m not being myself when i needed. Sometimes cannot even breathe

So loneliness will be my best friend and best enemy in same time.
I tried to be easy going and mingle more but cannot. My space is too precious to be invaded.
God i sound so arrogant

But aren’t we all lonely even in busy crowd?