Where are we going?

The president worked like a puppet of cult religion for 4 decades

A young brilliant person killed two woman by rape and torture

Another person made a lady to jump out from his balcony and went out to eat for pizza

Where are we going?
Is human losing being human?
Is this really end of the world and Jesus is coming back to Rapture?
Or are we another puppet of Media play?
Those things were so weird and jaw dropping news soon will become another norm
like any other news we watch in these days
I certainly do not want to have norm hearted on those shocks
My prayer is my heart to be stay as soft as now and be emotional as much as now
even thought it takes hurts, disappointment, sadness and broken hearted
I watched this movie The Equals; movie sets on future with high tech and bar coded world with perfect nature and livable environment BUT if you falling into any kind of emotions the authority takes the person to institution and kill them. Is this the future are we going to face soon? I believe in God and human dignity
And in this turbulence I do hope everyone find their Peace and God centered heart

 

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Ambivert

Definition of ambivert. : a person having characteristics of both extrovert and introvert.

 

Put simply, ambiversion is a combination of introversion and extroversion. The word “ambivert” is defined in the Merrian-Webster dictionary as “a person having characteristics of both extrovert and introvert.” In other words, they fall somewhere in the middle of the spectrum.

Friends, Lovers or Nothing (John Mayer)

Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We’ll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
I’ll be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
There’ll never be an in between
So give it up

You whisper “Come on over”
‘Cause your two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we’ll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
There’ll never be an in between
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We’ll never be the in between
So give it up

We’ll never the in between
So give it up

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Anything other than a yes is no
Anything other than stayin’ is go
Anything less than I love you, is lying

Personal Space

Please understand me I need a space, probably 1 km around me
You can come near me but please give me a space when I need it
Be ware, sometimes I need it for days, weeks and months.
Few hours too if you are lucky

It is not that I dont like you, I do but stay bit far when I need it so
If you need it too, talk to me then I will give to you
But together 24/7 is impossible

Am I odd?
Maybe yes
Please dont trying to change me, it is worse than not have a space
Dont tame me, Im a wild one who cannot be tamed

Some says, you are not suitable to have a relationship
It can be true.
I still believe there is someone out there who understands me as I am
Untamed

Dont get me wrong, I am emotionally available, very available
and loving and caring
just need little bit of my own planet
Too much to ask?

Emotions

Is Love just an illusion?
the emotion toward to someone comes and goes
today I feel like I am going to die without that person
tomorrow I feel perfectly okay without that person,
the space fills up by other stuffs, other objects and other person

Was that Love or just an illusion from heart?

I don’t know, probably I will never figure out

Still…….

I want to be love someone and be loved by that person in same time
Even though It will leave life long scar again on my heart

This is the tricky part
When I get hurt on hand, I can do to doctor and get treated
In few days, the wound gets healed with scar but soon you forget what happened

When I get hurt on Heart, I have nowhere to go, nobody can heal me
In few years, the wound you though got healed, opens and bleeding again
then I have to go through the healing process again and again
One song, one scent, one word, one scene, one place opens that wound wide open
Bleeding again
heals again

One day I will meet someone who never will hurt me and let me forget this wound and scar forever
would I?

 

 

Independence over Loneliness

I love to being surrounded by people but after 2 or 3 hours I need my space more than anything. Do you call this independence? Frankly, when I separate myself from those crowd I do feel lonely or regret I did so but I usually choose to be alone even though.

Yes many times i act like i need nobody and most of times i mean it. But my independence cannot be interrupted. This is more important than not being lonely.
I feel trapped with people if I’m not being myself when i needed. Sometimes cannot even breathe

So loneliness will be my best friend and best enemy in same time.
I tried to be easy going and mingle more but cannot. My space is too precious to be invaded.
God i sound so arrogant

But aren’t we all lonely even in busy crowd?